blogs are a funny thing......for me. (mine especially) i love the idea of keeping a record--using it as a journal. but normally--or the old fashioned pen to paper way, people, not just loved ones or those with the same blood pumping through the system, read/analyze/judge... your written thoughts. i have not written for months. a lot has happened in those months. a lot. many times i have thought of things to brag, oops i mean blog about..but i wondered at the purpose. many times i have thought of things to (for lack of a better word) whine about. again, i wondered at the purpose. i do enjoy the comments from the brave reader who will actually admit that they have read your blog. i have good friends and family who support and offer words of support and advice. people who will laugh and cry with me (most time both at the same time). these family/friends know me better than anyone ever has--because they read my journal. that seems creepy in a way. that being said, i check my google reader multiple times a week to see who has updated their own blog--hardly ever writing a comment.
alec is gone. i packed him, tried to jam all the advice/example/teachings of 19 years into a few precious weeks, and then dropped him off--yes literally dropped him at the curb and said good-bye. i was told that he did not look back, i could not see because of the tears i was holding back so he would not worry. i will not see him for two years, not on christmas, or mother's day, his birthday, or even groundhog's day. i hear he may call on mother's day and christmas--oh, but not this christmas because he will still be in the MTC. who does that?? well, i did (as has thousands of other mothers and fathers). and i would do it again....actually i hope to do it 3 more times in my life. how crazy is that?
how is that for a blog (brag/whine) post?
ADDENDUM:
approximately 4 minutes after posting this i decided to delete it. i again changed my mind but wanted to add:
in said post, it sounds as if i sent alec off by myself. there is nothing further from the truth. sending alec off was a group effort. and this effort started years ago. he said himself (as we were eating our last meal together) he was a product of the imperial 1st ward. his ym leaders and bishopric created this missionary. to actually get him on the above mentioned curb took family, friends and ward members. i will never be able to express my gratitude to them....i only hope/pray that i am around when they are sending a missionary or in need of some service. they showed me what to do. thank you.
